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Regrets

POSTED ON Monday, July 1, 2013 AT 1:55 PM \ leave a comment (0)

Hi blog.

Its July 1st today, which means another semester has started for me. Since i have some spare time before i need to head for school, i would like to start my blog rolling with the first subject: Regrets.

There are certainly things in life which i feel would have ended up better if i have or haven't done something. Some of which i still regret now, some of which i regretted in the past but doesn't matter anymore now.

During my secondary schooling days, i really regretted not studying as much. I went to school everyday learning pretty much nothing and every time when the examination week approaches, i will be very flustered and start to study but we all know that it would already be too late. So i failed pretty much everything except for my chinese language. I was quite disappointed about that and still am and up to this day, i still do regretted for not revising my work and scored badly.

Second, i regretted choosing Electronics Engineering course during my poly days as my maths is really very weak and i have totally no interest in the course. My results are quite bad and i even repeated a module. Even though i eventually graduated from my course with my diploma, my GPA was really bad and i couldn't get into a local university. That really sucks considering that i am not from a rich family and my family couldn't afford to send me overseas for studies thus i would need to study in SIM which does not come cheap neither. Every time i ask for my school fees from my dad, it hurts and yes i still regretted this up till now.

Thirdly, i really regretted falling in love with someone whom does not feel the same way towards me. Its quite peculiar as she made her move towards me first but everything ended up not the way i would have expected to. I felt i spend a moronic year to try and forget about her. However, i do not think it is a issue anymore as she is already out of my life long ago after i met my current girlfriend :) So to be honest, i don't really feel as regretful now and just let it become a memory as well as a lesson.

Forth, I regretted putting on so much weight. Its really easy to put on weight but its really hard to lose them and its a uphill task from now on to lose some weight. So i would have to work extra harder to lose some weight.

Fifth. i regretted drifting apart from my secondary school buddies. Every time i see some of them going overseas together or coming together for a meet, it pains me because i was so close to them during my secondary school days but yet i did not maintain this relationships and managed to let them slip away. Now i find it awkward if i try and contact them or go out with them so i don't now. But seriously, i should have hold on to these friendships.

There might be some smaller regretful moments around but this are the major ones i can currently think of and i hope the next time i look back at this post, i will not feel as regretful as how i do now.